I am on the brink of breaking. Is this what was intended? Because if so it is working. I am tired of staying up all night, with the same conversations running through my head, around in circles like a puppy that has just found his tail. These conversations spin around, The words appearing in my minds eyes as I try to get some rest.
Can it really be true? What if it is true, What if it is a lie? What can I believe? What do I have to believe in? What proof. I have never been one who needs proof to believe something, but now I am finding myself in just the opposite mind frame. I ask a simple task that can never be completed, Which leaves me feeling curious and hurt. My heart says, Believe, whatever you do just believe. My mind on the other hand is saying, There is no proof, nothing to show.
Soon enough my mind can't bare it. I break down, as always, I quiver in that corner, Wondering, always wondering. That big strong girl who isn't afraid to scream in the face of danger, has broken, Withered to completely nothing but the thoughts running through her head.
Finally, a resolution has found it's way into my life. I have finally had that little bit of proof to put my mind at ease and let my heart beat free! I am so happy! So here I am. Happy and waiting, with arms wide open.
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" I don't want to close my eyes, I don't want to fall asleep, cause I'd miss you baby..And I don't want to miss a thing. "
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